God Stayed With Me Even When I Stopped Going To Church

There was a time in my life where things were really bad. I would go to church wanting God to fix the problem I had, and I wanted Him to fix it right away.

Things were seriously bad. I got fed up with God, because He knew I was in deep trouble but wasn't saving me.

So after coming from church one particular day, I said to myself 'I won't go to church anymore', but the Holy Spirit reminded me that God said to us in my church—that “He is removing people who don't deserve what He is going to do, and I just removed myself from His plans.“

So I repented and gave myself to God again, but I said I won't go to church anymore because I no longer go there to worship God... but only go there because I want God to fix my situation—by thunder, by storm, and no matter what.

Going to church was depressing to me during that time.

So I continued being in the kingdom of God just like before but didn't go to church.

I became really separated from my church, as I decided to go to another province. Yet, God showed me that I was in the right path even though i was not going to church.

I would receive new tongues and get dreams from God even though I wasn't going to church.

I think it has been 7 or 8 years since I went to church because of my personal problems, but it doesn't mean I was outside the kingdom of God. It's just that emotionally I wasn't okay to go to church—I am getting there though, but I still haven't gone to church.

Now I would see that I am aligned with my church... because when I would watch online sermons from my church, God would say something that I am going through.

I would have nice dreams about my spiritual father, and I had a dream where my spiritual father was protecting me from danger.

I believe that means, even though I haven't been going to church... but because I was faithful to God outside church, I still have the covering from my church and I am still in God's kingdom.

My spiritual eyes are also opening, all these things showed me that I am in the correct path. I will go to church once I am okay.

When I used to go to church I used to struggle being fired up during the week like I would on Sundays.

During the week I struggled with praying, reading the bible and being connected to God.

Going to church plugged me to God, but when I leave, I would have little connection to God.

When I resided in a province away from my church, somehow and after sometime, I was always plugged in to God. I would read the bible, pray, watch worship songs. But before that, I was a slave of watching everything related to God—because I felt guilty watching a movie and not watching a gospel channel. “Why am I watching a movie and not a preacher?” That's what I would say to myself.

Reading the bible, praying, watching gospel music and having a big problem that got me closer to God everyday, made me to be always plugged in to God at all times (I think).

I don't work to be connected to God, it's just there all the time.

One time, I was watching a movie and talking to the Holy Spirit... and I stopped and realised that I am watching a movie but I am connected to God. I realised that I was talking to the Holy Spirit while watching a movie.

Since that day, I was free from the guilt I would feel when I wanted to watch a movie.

The guilt would make me feel like I am committing a sin for wanting to watch a movie instead of watching a sermon. There is a time for everything—there is time for fun and there is time for being serious.

I think prioritising my relationship with God made me to stay plugged in to God.

I am always connected to God and i think God watched what I was doing (prioritising our relationship), and decided to be my friend. That's why I'm always connected to Him.

No matter what I am doing, the Holy Spirit talks to me (the Holy Spirit would argue with me if I am doing something wrong).

No matter where I am, I can feel the connection I have with God.

I don't struggle with being connected to God at all, and that's a gift I wish for everyone.

God is not programed to answer your prayers at all times, and when you want. So if He does something for you, it's because He wanted to... not because you control Him with your prayers.